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Saturday~

Fairly quiet day today, too - didn't do any moving of stuff. DID go for a walk with Mama, and also fixed my domain problem, so all my homeserver things are working again, phew!

That's about all, though. Which was nice. Though Sushi DID do a dumb again... but is late so just have the chatlog, yes.

[01:37] Tyger: Want to hear today's Sushi Idiocy story?
[01:38] Azremodehar: oh no what did him do
[01:38] Tyger: He decided to walk along the curtain rail
[01:38] Tyger: Which went okay. Until he got to the end and realised the bookshelf he'd usually step onto is... not there right now.
[01:39] Tyger: So he had to go backwards
[01:39] Azremodehar: oh no
[01:39] Tyger: He managed like three quarters of the way until he lost his balance! And he didn't fall the whole way, he clung on with his front paws. So I was able to boost him up and he made if off just fine. [01:40] Tyger: But seriously, cat, REALLY??
[01:40] Azremodehar: him ver adventursome
[01:40] Tyger: His cone was scraping across the wall the entire time I do not know why that wasn't enough to make him realise Maybe Not Right Now
[01:40] Azremodehar: :facepalmtachi:

My Status as an Assassin Obviously Exceeds the Hero's Vol. 6

My Status as an Assassin Obviously Exceeds the Hero's Vol. 6 by Matsuri Akai

Spoilers ahead for the earlier volumes.

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The Perks of Being an S-Class Heroine, Vol. 6

The Perks of Being an S-Class Heroine, Vol. 6 by Grrr

Spoilers ahead for the earlier books.
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Current Location: Birthplace

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Recharge day

Yeah I uh. I slept a LOT of today. I really needed it, not gonna lie.

Sushi is doing much better! He's figured out how to eat AND sleep in his cone, phew!!! And hasn't got out of it again, double phew!

I mainly just read stuff and played some games, when I was awake. Chill day, yes. Required. (Tomorrow I'm going to have to figure out what the fuck is up with my webserver stuff, because it's still not back up, which is going to be. Annoying. Because shit always is. Siiiiigh.)

I did forget that I moved another chest of drawers yesterday! So that's a thing. We haven't heard from the window people though, so it won't be starting on Monday. Hopefully they'll give us SOME notice? And double hopefully it'll be soon? It's very inconvenient to live like this.

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I am still rotating the bug game

I am inching my way through Hollow Knight, very slowly. ( GARAMA! SHAW! - Hornet words of wisdom )

But yeah I think like, vessel made of void that carries an equivalent great sword around is the most Dark Knight Hours it could ever be so it's no wonder I've latched on. It's been nice to spend an hour just doing something else other than XIV or Stadium every day. Stadium I've reached the stage of being at, or almost at, the rank I was last season, so all reduced loss percentages are gone, which really sucks because it's now +80 for win and -80 for loss so it's like hitting your head into a wall at times. The advertised part of this system is it gives you loss reduction if you have leavers or win multiple rounds! Not so at this point. It makes me not want to grind out anymore because losses feel twice as frustrating and it's why I don't really play traditional comp. It's just asking to be tilted, especially when the game matches you with any rank. Am I not being punished enough with having to carry two rookies on my back the whole time!! Apparently not.

It's drives next week though, so perhaps I will simply play less games overall this week and put the hard effort into next week. And hope it doesn't match me with people who don't know what they're doing and penalise me for it...

Furniture stuff happened on Monday; bed is rotated. Dozens of cardboard boxes flattened, old appliances removed. Had some vertigo issues during that that reminded me why I can't physically do shit or leave the house (not yay). I am now going through the wardrobe which is a weird exercise, because there are gifts in here from six years ago to people who have nigh vanished from my life. I would like to get them to them, but this may have to be tackled in spring. I feel like Ikea shall be getting more of my custom for bookshelves for that room and also a tv stand with actual storage for my living room, lol. And then I'll probably be done in my blissfully dust free zone.

The deep well of sadness is on its way for me again. Passage of time isolation static constantly losing things it takes me so long to do anything can't leave the house ten years ten years ten years. I do not expect it to ease for a while.

Kill the Villainess, Vol. 4

Kill the Villainess, Vol. 4 by Haegi

Spoilers ahead for the earlier books.

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Sushi Half-Tail

Yeah, Sushi did have to get part of his tail amputated. :(

( Got a bit long. )

Other than that I did pmuch nothing today. Brain all gone. Barely even napped, despite having a terrible night's sleep due to worried. Bleh. Brain, getting all worked up like this doesn't! Actually! Stop me worrying! As well as, you know, not helping the situation at all to be overtired. SIGH.

Anyway, now is for sleeping again, so hopefully I'll sleep better today...

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author: w

Recent Reading: The Once and Future King

Last night I finished The Once and Future King by T.H. White, because I felt like it was time I made a real foray into the Arthurian legends. The actual first Arthurian book I read was The Mists of Avalon, but that was years ago and before I had heard the full story about Marion Zimmer Bradley. This book takes a decidedly different tone. I’m sticking to the most common name spellings for all of the characters here, because spellings do vary across all versions of these legends.

The first thing that surprised me about The Once and Future King is that it’s funny, and frequently in an absurd, dorky kind of way. Knights failing tilts because their visors fell over their eyes wrong, Merlin accidentally zapping himself away in the middle of a lesson because he was in a temper, the Questing Beast “falling in love” with two men dressed in a beast costume, that sort of thing. This silliness is largely concentrated in the first quarter of the book, which is about Arthur’s childhood, but it’s never fully lost.

The second surprise was how long the book focuses on Arthur’s childhood, but then again, it is setting the scene for Arthur’s worldview and the lessons he internalized as a child which shape his approach to being king.

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I Picked Up This World's Strategy Guide, Vol. 2

I Picked Up This World's Strategy Guide, Vol. 2 by atchi ai

Spoiler ahead for volume 1.

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Well that was fucking stupid of me.

So APPARENTLY I let my domain registration lapse, whoops. Luckily, there's a grace period so I could still reregister it. Unluckily, it did mean it was more expensive. (Also I need to wait 24-48 hours for the DNS to re-propagate, uuuugh.) Very annoying, but not an unreasonable punishment for not having my shit together. :/

This is, honestly, a major problem with email in general for me, because I just did not check and see the reminders. Jobhunting makes it worse, because you get so goddamn many acknowledgement emails that mean absolutely nothing that having unread mail isn't even a vague concern. Which is bad. Need to find a way to manage it better, but haven't had the brain to do it thus far. If anyone has any advice I'd appreciate it.

Moved my drawers yesterday, and some more of the display cabinet stuff. Plus some random shit to fill up the box it was in. Only one more dragon to go, and the rest is stuffed eevees, so that's not too bad!

Sushi's xray is at Before Goddamn Breakfast Time tomorrow morning, so I'm uh. Super nervous about that and also I should have been in bed at least attempting to sleep a while ago. Gotta get up early enough that a few months ago it still woulda been dark out, uuuugh. Also fuuuuck, Sushiiii ;; He's still fine in himself but I am. A fret. Yes.

I Picked Up This World's Strategy Guide, Vol. 1

I Picked Up This World's Strategy Guide, Vol. 1 by atchi ai

A frolic with a somewhat different approach. A girl works in her mother's item shop, and one day while gathering herbs, she finds a book. A strange book.

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Tuesday.

Nothing huge today, which honestly was kind of nice.

Did some washing! Moved at least two thirds of the stuff in the display cabinet - need to find some more boxes for the last of it; most of the ones we have aren't quite tall enough to fit the bigger dragons. Still, most of them are done now, so that's something! The shells are also going to be annoying, but I already tipped over the bigger dish by accident when trying to get something else out, so I can just put them in a small box or something, will have to rearrange them all anyway.

Tomorrow will probably be my desk drawers, which are... very full. I REALLY need to rearrange the top two, and go through the bottom one looking for shit I can throw out. (Also file more things. It's my filing cabinet drawer, but it's unfortunately in a difficult position to get at most of the time, since the bin lives in front of it, as well as often the heater. I don't really have a lot of stuff I need to file, though, so it's really fine for my use case. I just get lazy, so I've got a small stack of medical receipts and tax stuff to file.)

Sushi is more or less fine in himself, though the wound is uh. Not looking any better. But his biggest complaint is that he is not allowed outside at all, not even into the run, and how! dare!!! Sigh. Anyway as it turns out it's good I couldn't make the appointment for tomorrow, because my father has one of his cancer check-up scans and that might've gotten awkward scheduling-wise. And, you know, Sushi isn't suffering, so...

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Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

So, Sushi's probably going to have to get half his tail amputated.

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I am upset about this! Also kicking myself, because maybe I should've called the vet as soon as I noticed the wound or something?? But I'll try and wait to hear what the root cause is before going down that spiral.

Part of my problem is also that I haven't fucking eaten properly today, like a moron. I mean, I'd be upset anyway of course, but the level of volatility in my upset is not usual for me, so yeah I'm pretty sure it's the food thing. (I accidentally about 14 hours without a meal. Which included all of the furniture moving I did, and also it was very humid.) Ate a bowl full of green beans when I realised at like. 1am. But that's still A Little Fucking Long, and I doubt it was enough. Didn't want to eat too much at that time of night either, though... (Or cook. Cooking also not a good idea after midnight.)

However, for good things about today... I survived driving to and from the vet! It wasn't as bad as I feared; turns out a lot of the parts of driving I've kept some muscle memory for. I mean. I'm still not a good driver, and I was definitely worse than I have been, but it wasn't too horrible.

I also got myself a bahn mi while I was out to reward myself for Doing A Scary Thing, and it was pretty good! Not the best bahn mi around, but the best I could get near the vet's!

And in moving news, I moved both of my under-desk chests of drawers. ( Ramble )

And now I go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! I should make egg-pea-mushroom-tuna noodles for lunch, that's a good solid meal...

Orange

Orange by Ichigo Takano

This is available in five volumes, and also in two omnibus editions (the second included a backstory which I didn't get into), but it reads as one story.

It opens with Naho receiving a letter. It says it's from her future self, that a new boy will arrive in class and sit beside her, and she must not ask him to walk home, because he's no longer with them in the future.

Not knowing what to believe, she joins with her friends in asking

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"The Old Usher," by Oliver Reynolds

The Old Usher
Oliver Reynolds
2010, from Hodge

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for Farès Moussa

I have
shouted Lights! in the foyer as the show begins

I have
opened and closed a million doors
Push and Pull stamping my palms

I have
woken with Good Evening on my lips

I have
ROH in moles over my left nipple

I have
Tchaikovsky as a heart-beat

I have
told ten thousand bladders
It’s down the slope and on the right

I have
stood at the bottom of Floral Hall stairs
with Peter Bramley at the top
tapping the metal hand-rail with his ring
to annoy me

I have
bent my head to complaints about the row in front
the big hair-do, the change-jingler, those who snore or smell

I have
turned a blind eye, a deaf ear, and a stopped nostril

I have
opened and closed a million doors
Push and Pull stamping my palms

I have
waited in the wings to present flowers
cygnets wafting past me in a crush of tutus
each back tight with the cordage of muscle

I have
sold ices with Susie Boyle

I have
passed the black-and-white monitor at Stage Door
and felt proud to see Haitink in the pit
a bottled homunculus preserved in music

I have
opened my locker on a vista of dirty shirts

I have
killed a moth for Monica Mason
It wants to settle on me!
she who once danced her death in the Rite
now frightened of millimetres of flutter

I have
Tchaikovsky as a heart-beat

I have
bassoons and strings planned for my last-act death
the weightless pas-de-chat
lifting me out of this ninth life
into the proscenium’s eternal gold

I have
perfected my farewell
a final turning-out of the pockets
as I rise and vanish into air
swirling with the confetti of ticket-stubs

I have
shouted Lights! as the show begins

I have

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Uuuuugh nerves are stupid

So vet again for Sushi tomorrow! This is fine. I am fine with that. I am not fine with the fact that my parents are away, and thus I need. To drive. The car. To get him there. :( :( :( I think I've successfully avoided driving at all since like. 2016? 2015 maybe? Maybe not an entire decade but A LONG ASS TIME, and even that last time was literally just driving the car back from the airport, which is. Not a lot of driving, comparatively.

So yeah, that's gonna. Be a thing. :| Also it's at 11am which is not THAT early really but I should uh. Really be in bed so I have a chance of being Alert for non-adrenaline reasons. Yes. >>;;

Other than that, have now moved most of the big stuff on my desk, other than the electronics. (There are. Um. Four computers on here. So there's still quite a bit of stuff. And a couple of piles of little things, which will take a while to sort through... which is why I haven't done it yet.) Also moved my little shelf, and started emptying out the desk cupboard! Mostly the stationary, but also some other random stuff. Still more in there, but it's a start!

Anyway now I am stopping procrastinating, going to bed, and hoping I don't have another nightmare, bleh. My brain was a BASTARD last night...

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Moved some drawers!

Moved the storage drawers I have at the back of my desk today! ( Moving rambles )

Other than that, played some solo Terraria. ( Terraria rambles )

Anyway somehow it's now 4:30 so I'm just gonna. Uh. Go the fuck to bed, you moron. Yes. That.

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It started raining as soon as I laid down to sleep. Earplugs it is.

This week has been a bit of a wash; groceries have almost completely wiped me out, despite adequate rest around it. And also the sun going down by like 15:45 and it being pitch dark by 16:15. It just makes my body demanding more rest (when it's already rested for 10 hours, mind) stressful as it means no sun and I want to at least see daylight, even filtered through curtains, at least a couple hours a day... I say this, but darkness is the best light level for me, because I can completely control my surroundings as the ambient is consistent... it's a very sucky quandary. Food is also causing general issues, in that I think I have a tomato regularity limit (I had issues last time with certain herbs added and tortilla chips it had veto'd so nixed both of them. This time it was a bit unsettled digestively but relatively minor), and cous cous is not accepted. Why? Who knows.

Still, I need to vacuum over the weekend before dad tackles the other bedroom, and I will help, a bit. Mostly with changing bedsheets after I remove the plushies to put on a spread blanket in my living room on Sunday, as that's my limit. With removing and flattening boxes, carrying out furniture and old electronics, and then changing and moving the bed, probably just a few hours. I'm hoping it doesn't wear me out too much, I would like to do some writing, which is at the moment restricted to solely the adjacent grocery week and even that's a maybe.

I also managed to hurt my finger next to my thumb by firstly playing Hollow Knight (the jump button is bad. It requires a long press every time. I had to remap it as my thumb said no after one room. My finger can manage it for an hour maximum at a time) and also freezing weather so now it has blown up double its usual size. Yay fun ME things!!

Mogtomes has begun and so has a copious amount of Cliffhangers. This is good because I can do jumps easily enough but not actual content when my finger is hurting as much as it is. Stadium is going: changes this season include gains being nigh nonexistent once it places you where it thinks you should be, but as I'm All-Star everything, my main goal is simply comp points. And trying earnestly to learn a Brigitte build. I've noticed one particular build destroys tanks and you guessed it... it's a fire based build... as a D.Va lava connoisseur this speaks to me. And learning things about my Ashe build - the last power I pick doesn't describe the bonus ability damage as being yet another burn to add to her tally, and I didn't notice because my target is usually already burning when it activates, but now I know my third eye has opened honestly. Why have one burn every twelve seconds when you could potentially have ten on a target all at once??? Much to think about.

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Day Off

Today I just... did not do any moving. Probably shoulda, but ehhh. I DID go to the shop and get meds, and played Terraria both with people and by myself, which is... something? Probably no multiplayer Terraria for a few days though, the host has houseguests. Including at least one of the other players, though maybe two? Not sure. Anyway, should be fun for them!

Other than that, uh. Not much. I napped a LOT today, not entirely on purpose. And now I'm up late because fiiiic, sigh. Self, just. Stoppit. But bed now yes! >:

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Current Location: Birthplace

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Moving Shit: Commenced!!!

Okay so technically I started yesterday, but it really FEELS like I started today, because I moved out the tea trolley I used as a work desk AND the bookshelf, so there's a biiiig gap where are whole lot of stuff now isn't.

It is, of course, the easiest of the furniture to move, but still! It's moved!!! And I can use the bookshelf for storage of stuff from my desk, which is also very important! :3

Other than that, A was in the area, so she dropped in for a couple of hours, so that was super fun! :D She was very impressed with the blanket, too, which given she's a MUCH bigger sewer than Mama or I are, is nice. :D And she said that the one time she did some quilting doing it by machine didn't actually take much less time than handsewing would've, which is uh. Slightly terrifying - h o w - but also nice to know I didn't waste a lot of time, really. (Thought I'd have the brain to post pictures today, but alas, moving shit ate it all.)

Played some Terraria, but the (extremely long) fic I was rereading got up to The Grand Finale and I got a little transfixed, thus... still awake. Yeah. >>;; But bed now!