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Nothing huge today, really! Multiplayer Terraria was on, but it turns out that I really can't play it :( :( :( The latency was just. Unplayably bad, even worse than playing it solo. :/

Computer is also doing a weird, where it suddenly logs out of my session, and then when I log back in again it's lost the icon set I've picked? Very strange. Also firefox is lagging a lot, and I THINK it's related, but I wasn't really paying enough attention before it started happening to be sure, hahaha. ^^;;;

Anyway, there's some software updates available, so I'mma install them once I'm done here and we'll see how it goes tomorrow!

Scout got to go outside today! Twice, even! She was VERY HAPPY about this, adorable! :3 I uh. Ended up doing some weeding, just to keep my hands busy - phone is full of fun things, of course, but if I get sucked in I'm not keeping an eye on Scout and that is uh. Not great! There's only one way she can get out, but she can if you don't pay attention, sooooo... weeding. Yes. It's probably good for me, anyway!

I also went to the shops AGAIN, for the third day in a row (whyyy), because I needed milk. That's literally all I got! Just milk! Because I didn't even have enough left for breakfast tomorrow orz orz orz. I may have been drinking a bit too much milk, that's over two liters in three days... (But also milk is so great!!!)

Anyway, now is time for bed! A little earlier than I usually manage, so good job me for that, hahaha.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Casa de Scout

tyger

It rained almost all day today! It was a LOT. Does explain why my ankle was so achy yesterday, though... And it was achy again today so fingers crossed that means it'll clear up tomorrow.

Scout is EXTREMELY sad that she couldn't go out today either, but. Water. Water from the skyyyy. What can you do!

Poked the computer a bit more, and it turns out that at least some of the problem is Steam is eating like. 4GB of RAM. By itself. Plus whatever the OS and other programs are using! There SHOULD still be enough RAM for Terraria, but I can understand why it's not doing so well. (And like. I CAN run it, it's just uh. Not great.)

Not real sure what can be done about this one, honestly - might just have to give up on Terraria until I'm home. Which is annoying!

Other than that, made butter chicken for dinner! I ate uh. Way too much. But nom nom nom butter chicken~ :9 And now I have food for a few days, too, yay!

Sleepytiem nao, yes. Hopefully I'll get to cuddle with Scout! She's definitely warmed up to me a lot, it's great.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Casa de Scout

rocky41_7 posting in

books

Last night I wrapped up Solo Dance by Kotomi Li, translated from Japanese by Arthur Morris. This short book is about a young gay Taiwanese woman who struggles with both internal and external homophobia, and eventually moves to Japan looking for understanding.

Queer stories from other countries are always interesting to me and it’s a good reminder that progress has not been even all over the world. Much of the book is pretty depressing, because the protagonist struggled with fitting in even before she realized she was gay, and she has some real struggles. She is battling severe depression for much of the book and at several points, suicidality.

The book is touching in that the protagonist’s struggles feel real and she’s someone who is so close to having positive experience that could change her life for the better, but her luck keeps dropping on the other side each time.

I don’t want to spoil too much about the end, but while I was grateful for the overall tone of the it, it is contrived and not very believable. But I did enjoy the protagonist’s travels leading up to that point. It’s not at all subtle, and it packs a lot more plot into the final handful of chapters than the rest of the book, but it was still sweet to see the protagonist’s perspective shift a little through her engagements with other people.

I’m not sure if it’s the translation or the original prose, but the language is stilted and very emotionally distant. The reader is kept at arm’s length from the protagonist virtually the whole novel, and while we’re often told she’s feeling these intense feelings, I never felt it. It was like reading a clinical report of her feelings, which was disappointing.

This is Li’s first novel, and it reads that way. There’s a lot of heart in it, and I appreciate it for that, but it lacks a lot in technical skill. I would be interested to see more of Li’s future work, when she’s had more time to polish her ability, but I don’t regret taking the time with this one.

tyger

Yup, moved over here for catsitting purposes, and not only is the cat adorable (not surprising, but extremely pleasing), but the house is adorable, too! Tiny little thing - the sort of medium-high density stuff they were making... idk 100 years ago or so? Very small houses, close together, not much of a yard or anything, but still nice!

This one in particular is a two bedroom, but given my back I'm sleeping on the couch, so I'm yet again confronted with the fact that I'd be perfectly happy living in a studio apartment sized place. Sigh. I am perhaps too used to not having much space! (Though it would be super great to have a room to use as an office, when I'm working.)

Anyway, not only is it cute but it's super close to shops and the trains, so I think I'mma enjoy staying here! :3

Scout, the kitty, is sweet, but still a little wary of me. Which is fine! Very few cats are immediately at ease with a new large mammal in their living space, particularly when their usual humans are gone! She's gotten less shy already, though, so I think we'll be fine.

Computer is working okay - got some personalisation stuff done, but I've gotta do more research into how to make snap container-apps do shit like 'use your selected icon set' and 'respect the cursor you chose'. Terraria is... not as good as I'd like. Even though I have more than enough RAM according to its specs, it's running like ass. Think it's probably because it's dropping frames, from what I've read. I can technically play it, but it's not real fun as-is, and I'm not sure it'd stand up to multiplayer latency. :/ So more research needed for that, too...

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Casa de Scout

requiems

The good news is, I got a substituted phone on Thursday, and have had zero migraines since! Imagine that! I noticed iCloud was backing up once a week on a Tuesday, so turned off auto backups on the decent chance it would still have an ios18 backup from the prior week and it did, and then successfully synched with the cloud for photos/notes. There's a few things it didn't seem to successfully grab, so I'll take stock and see if I can get those transferred or no...

The bad news is I had to relog into everything (except tumblr, which just let me in immediately) and I need to sort out some shared things that require verification to get back in when I have the energy but also soonish, because those things are groceries and monthly Amazon deliveries, the latter which includes all the random medications I need to facilitate eating and successful bathroom breaks 💀 I will try over the weekend. I had to accept the threat of additional PEM by seeing my dad too soon after groceries again to get a phone that didn't send my head reeling sooner, and also got another bookcase from ikea which he ended up assembling as he had to open the package, since the Rems that could barely look at her phone to order it possibly ordered a size she wasn't expecting - a double wide bookcase instead of two singles. It fits, it's fine, it was simply aesthetic choice and wanting adjustable individual shelves.

I had to move some canvas artwork my parents bought for that room to accommodate it though, and whilst it will go up again on a different wall, I need something to put on the pre-existing hook. I immediately considered this poster of Hornet, but today thought about the fact I don't think two months is enough time to commit to her on my walls. In comparison, what is on my walls is an Ariel print (who I have loved since I have had conscious thought), an Overwatch print I owned for six years just to be sure I wanted it up, a Journey game print I owned for a couple of years before putting up, Mass Effect posters I likewise owned for six years before putting up, a Yuna wall scroll I bought specifically to put up as I had loved her for ten years by that point... you get the idea. Wall is a big commitment!

And then I was like, wait, wait - what about this art of nearly all the Final Fantasy women I was looking at lovingly recently? So many women! So many women I love fiercely! Lovely pastel colours! I think I may be going with this.

( you've heard of Overwatch now get ready for OverWhy )

I got the last few trophies on Hollow Knight after briefly giving up: I could not get the invincibility glitch to work, but then Team Cherry announced Silksong dlc and that they would be patching HK with an update so if you want that platinum Rems you had best Figure It Out. ( being invincible in a realm called godhome makes sense, personally )

Current Mood: restless

tyger

Got all my stuff packed, apart from the stuff I can't pack until after I use it in the morning. (Hairbrush. Phone and chargers. Pyjamas. Plus whatever clothes I'm wearing, of course, though that's not really packing.) Meds I'mma just take the ones I picked up today, and leave the almost-full packet here - they don't expire for several years so a couple of weeks is NBD - so HOPEFULLY I'm all done and will get away just fine tomorrow. We have to leave pretty early, so leaving as little as possible to think about is gonna be. Helpful.

Other than that... used my blanket last night, for the first time since I fixed it! No dramas, it's a blanket, but it's nice it's all pretty again. :3

Also finally got a present for Sibling! Nothing much, but at least it's something.

Anyway! Bed now! May not be able to get to sleep super easily, It Warm and I've been flopped most of the day, but I'mma try at least! >:

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

tyger

Today I did very little, because it was nice and hot! :D Obviously when it's nice and hot the best thing to do is to laze around like a giant cat!

...of course this means I have stuff to do tomorrow, and it's supposed to be like 35 tomorrow, but that's cooler than today was! (Also humidity at 50% which is. Ugh. Why.)

Priority list:

Meds (I technically have enough until Tuesday, but since I'm going catsitting on Saturday... much rather go to my usual chemist!)
Packing
Washing (may be needed for packing, so should probably do first, but technically I can take dirty clothes with me, so lower priority)

We'll see how it goes, I guess!

I DID manage to get Steam and Discord installed on the new computer, so that's done at least! They're both a little dodgy - Steam install warned about missing a couple of packages, but it's running Terraria fine so fingers! Crossed!!, and Discord is technically a third party client, but that's because there isn't an official one for ARM, so hopefully that's fine. (Plz do an ARM build, Discord! I would've installed it if I could've!)

Also Steam sync is syncing my Terraria characters properly, yaaaaay! Can still play multiplayer while I'm away! A me is happy yesssss.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

tyger

I did things today! Three things!

Made this year's pav!
Played multiplayer Terraria
Checked in on the new computer. Has a few weirds, but I think they're just new computer teething problems weirds, and the Budgie desktop is working just fine! :D (Though the Ubuntu one doesn't have access to the fuzzy clock, which is sad, that one's fun. I expect that it's the difference between Debian-based and Arch-based distros that's doing it, though I might poke it more later.)

New computer still needs a lot of personalising, but I think I'll do most of that when I'm catsitting - got SO many projects at home, but I can only take a few with me, after all! Will attempt to get Discord and Steam installed tomorrow, though, so I can test it. (Already got a big heads up that I should not download Steam via the snap store, apparently it's not well maintained and will fuck things up. Installing it via the download on their website is just fine though. Perks of knowing someone who knows the distro!)

Tomorrow I think I'm gonna start packing. Mainly so I can see if I need to do washing (answer: almost definitely yes), but also I'm going for a couple of weeks this time so it's a bigger problem if I forget something like, say, my toothbrush...

But first it's time for nappy naps! Yes! :D

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

rocky41_7 posting in

books

Time and circumstance conspired to keep me from reviewing the second book in the Cemeteries of Amalo book, The Grief of Stones, but today I finished the third book, Tomb of the Dragons and I do have time to review this third and final book in the trilogy.

This is NOT a spoiler-free review.

Tomb of the Dragons retains much of what I loved about the first two books, including Thara’s character and his investigations into the underbelly of Amalo, with a healthy helping of Ethuveraz politics.

Thara is having to adjust to the events at the end of the last book, and here, I feel, is where we truly see how important his calling is to him—how he handles losing it. It gives some good perspective to why he is so dogged in pursuing his work goals—his calling really is his sense of purpose, his life. Watching Thara grapple with this change and its indefinite consequences was fascinating.

However, it also retains in greater measure some of the things that I didn’t love about the earlier books, including Addison’s obsession with minutiae. I can only read about the characters traveling on this or that tram line so many times before my eyes start skipping lines to the things that really matter. This would bother me less if it didn’t feel like it came at the expense of more important things.

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requiems

Following the ongoing "hi, we're the Overwatch team, and we decided to simply Delete our old aim settings and give no ETA to when we are going to fix the botched camera for console" fiasco, on Friday (maybe Saturday?) my iphone popped up like hey I want to upgrade you to ios26 from 18. Me, a fool, sure, do that after I fall asleep.

I have regretted this decision ever since. I really need them to be more clear if they're upgrading the version to something brand new on the prompt, especially if there are UI changes, because I simply would not have done it. Ever since it upgraded to ios26, I have barely been able to use my phone. Two of four days I have had a migraine all day from having used it in the morning after waking up whilst my brain and eyes are still adjusting to being conscious - this is prime brain empty time, there is not much I can do in this state other than wait and I just aimlessly look at apps until I'm able to form thoughts. I have never had migraines or issues from screen usage until ios26 popped up. I don't know what it is, exactly, but I swear the colours on my phone are different now, it's like it's a new screen... and it probably is partly caused by liquid glass, which I can't turn off. I've tried waiting it out, since I know there can be an adjustment period visually, and sometimes small UI things I'll stop noticing after a few days, but if anything my migraines are getting worse and all day every day is a no, no thank you, looking at my phone for a couple of minutes makes my head want to explode. There's a lot of lag when scrolling, which is a hardware issue, but the additional dealbreaker is the intense vertigo and headaches the new animations cause. When apps open, they now drop in to the centre of the screen from wherever they are located, which I have alleviated a little by rearranging all my apps to be in the centre three lines so I can somewhat tolerate it - it's still bad, but I can at least open them without feeling like I'm going to throw up. When notifications drop down, they now do a pulsing effect instead of simply... dropping down. This makes me feel sick, every time, without fail. Not everything needs to move, Apple!! Stop!! If I go into accessibility - which I have gone through extensively, trying to change and correct colours, and adjust screen brightness and contrast to no real success - and go into motion to turn off the brain breaking animations, this is not actually accessible at all, because it replaces the animation with a new aperture animation every time you open an app, which is worse.

I use my phone for pretty much everything these days, especially when I haven't been able to open or get on my laptop. I need my eyes to work, or else it makes my vertigo and dizziness worse, and gives me migraines. I now have a very expensive brick, and it's not great!!

It's especially not great when brain is having issues with Overwatch and issues with trying to see if I can tolerate new lightbulbs that I can't determine because it can't tolerate screens of Any Kind due to being so overstimulated that all light on screens seems off. :| I need something to be stable and safe. My options are to either downgrade to a phone that can't get ios26 to get back onto ios18, swap to android, or, as I have just done, plead with my parents to maybe let me have their old iphones (same version as mine) that they fortuitously upgraded just before ios26 came about and should still be on ios18. I am going to have to put everything on the cloud and hope it can pull from that, because I can't do a backup restore to a lower version, and it is going to take days of pain in the interim to fix it, but anything is better than this longterm lmao.

Do not become extremely sensitive to noise and light. It's so infuriatingly disabling.

tyger

Yes! Today I DID work on the computer some more! (Also I cleaned the bathroom but that's not even vaguely interesting.)

Anyway without going into too much detail (again), I lost. ( ...I went into too much detail again though, so that's under the cut. )

Anyway, Ubuntu isn't a bad backup, and at least I could get it installed. Plus one of the people I play multiplayer games with occasionally is a full-time Ubuntu user, so if I run into any weird problems I can't figure out how to fix via my usual shaking of the internet (likelihood: high) I have someone I can ask! Though honestly I'm not going to be needing too much shit on this one anyway; firefox is preinstalled so the other two big ones are going to be Discord (which can run in the browser anyway), and Steam. And hey, I know these can run on Ubuntu, given Friend, so the real question is if they can run on ARM... which they probably can!

In non-computer talk, it's apparently going to get hotter again as the week goes on, so I'mma make the Christmas pav tomorrow. It's only like a week earlier than I'd usually do it, that's fine for pav - the thing you've gotta worry about is the cream, and that's always morning-of anyway!

But first, it is naptiem. Yes.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

tyger

It feels like today was FOREVER, but it really wasn't.

Anyway, big thing I (and Mama) did today was totally redecorate the chook run for the chooks! We filled the big holes in with dirt, and put cardboard down, and also an old tyre in a corner, and then filled everything up with sugarcane mulch! So that should make them a bit happier! :3 Still haven't finished the chook run thing, but I had the idea to put the tyre in yesterday, so we did that first since it took uh WAY less time than we're guessing finishing off the thing will take. Given how much longer every single step has taken than we thought.

I also wrapped my whole two presents for people this year. Organised!!! And I did manage to finish up a tube of wrapping paper, plus a sheet of stickers, so that was good too! :D ...I did do this instead of working on the new computer, though. >>;;; Yes I may be avoiding the annoyance of setting it up somewhere it can get ethernet. Gonna have to do it tomorrow though, I'm going catsitting on Saturday and want to have at least a couple of days for testing before I go! >:

Also I opened up my big bag of dried apples. It is. So dangerous. But I think I've eaten less than I did the first day last time, IIRC, so that's something!

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

marycatelli posting in

books

The Emperor's Caretaker 01 by Haruki Yoshimura

The first in a series, mostly set-up apparently.

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rocky41_7 posting in

books

It took over a month for my hold on this book to come up, but Friday night I finished Martyr! by Kaveh Akbar. If you look into online book recommendations like on New York Times or NPR, you've probably seen this title come up. This book is about a young poet who sobers up after years of severe addiction and is now looking for meaning and purpose.

Martyr! is a beautiful book about the very human search for meaning in our lives, but it also is not afraid to shy away from the ugliness of that search. It juxtaposes eloquently-worded paragraphs of generational grief with Cyrus waking up having pissed the bed because he went to sleep so drunk the night before. Neither of these things cancels the other out.

Everyone in Martyr! is flawed, often deeply, but they're all also very real, and they're trying their best; they aren't trying to hurt anyone, but they cause hurt anyway, and then they and those around them just have to deal with that. Martyr! weighs the search for personal meaning against the duty owed to others and doesn't come up with a clean answer. What responsibility did Orkideh have to her family as opposed to herself? What responsibility did Ali have to Cyrus as opposed to himself? What responsibility does Cyrus have to Zee, as opposed to his search for a meaningful death?

Cyrus' story is mainly the post-sobriety story: He's doing what he's supposed to, he's not drinking or doing drugs, he's going to his AA meetings, he's working (after a fashion)...and what's the reward? He still can't sleep at night and he feels directionless and alone and now he doesn't even have the ecstasy of a good high to look forward to. This is the "so what now?" part of the sobriety journey.

It's also in many ways a family story. Cyrus lost his mother when he was young and his father shortly after he left for college, and he spends the book trying to reckon with these things and with the people his parents were. Roya is the mother Cyrus never knew, whose shape he could only vaguely sketch out from his father's grief and his unstable uncle's recollections. Ali is the father who supported Cyrus in all practical ways, and sacrificed mightily to do it, but did not really have the emotional bandwidth to be there for his son. And there are parallels between Cyrus and Roya arising later in the book that tugged quite hard on my heartstrings, but I won't spoil anything here.

Cyrus wants to find meaning, but seems only able to grasp it in the idea of a meaningful death--hence his obsession with martyrs. The idea of a life with meaning seems beyond him. He struggles throughout the book with this and with the people trying to suggest that dying is not the only way to have lived.

I really enjoyed this book and I think it deserves the praise it's gotten. I've tried to sum up here what the book is "about," but it's a story driven by emotion more than plot. It's Cyrus' journey and his steps and stumbles along the way, and I think Akbar did a wonderful job with it.

tyger

Came home today! Ended up meeting A when she got home; some fucking asshole rang me at 6:30am - and turned out to be a wrong number so it wasn't even a useful call! - so I uh. Didn't sleep that well and slept in fairly late. So yeah, they got in just a couple of minutes after I finished breakfast, whoops!

Her husband dropped me home, though, so that was very nice of him! I wasn't really looking forward to taking the train, though of course I would've. But got to avoid changing trains in town where there are Many People, yaaaaay~

Haven't really done a huge amount other than that. Went out and did some chook maintenance stuff after tea with Mama, since it was so hot yesterday and they needed their water topped up anyway. Played some Terraria, too. That's pmuch it.

No computer stuff today, didn't have the brain for it. Maybe tomorrow! (Have some moving-stuff-around plans with Mama so I may turn into a pancake instead.)

But now, I'm go nap in my bed yessss. Best couch! Magic couch! No other couches compare! Also my dragonite is a GREAT pillow, better than A's squirtle I borrowed last night! (Not that squirtle is bad! Would happily use it again! Just, dragonite more comfy, yesss.)

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

tyger

I am at A's place!

Turns out doing an overnight is actually an EXCELLENT test run of new computer setups, because I've ALREADY figured out quite a few things I need to change/prep for:

( Lots of nerdery goes here. )

IN ANY CASE. In non-new-computer-related news, I did do some other stuff today! I got Mama to drop me off at the place I got my parents snack-presents from last year, and got my father some more of the freeze dried strawberries he absolutely adored. (And some licorice for Mama, too.) I also got some snacks for me, of course!

Still nothing for Sibling, though. :/ I had to walk past somewhere that sold game stuff on the way back, so I poked my nose in there, but nothing stood out. I thought if nothing else I could get some MtG boosters, but they were all out of the newest set! Boo! And since I don't keep up with MtG stuff I have no idea what sets are still legal for pro-level play soooo I didn't want to go back to one of the other sets. The rotation stuff is. Confusing. :/

I also saw the Stardew Valley board game, but it was Extremely Expensive so I didn't look at it in detail. Just. Nope. I am not a board game player, really, and that's the only reason you'd spend lots on a game like that I think. Not just a cool merch thing hahahaha. (Also I have some extremely cool fanart that was much less expensive AND super pretty, so, you know, I'm fine with my priorities.)

A's cats are super cute as usual, too! Kitty is of course Made Of Grump, but that's her usual state so it's fine. I have eaten all of the salami here AND there were fresh peas so I ate all of those, too... >>;; Also had a random pie for tea, and it was beef and CHEESE! :O Amazing! And so delicious!

I did, however, forget my toothbrush & related stuff, so WHOOPS. I'mma just hope that one night of scrubbing with my finger (and flossing if there's some in the cupboards) will be okay, heh. If I was here longer of course I'd just go buy one, but something to keep in mind! (Also less annoying than forgetting my hairbrush. Or underwear. I know this from experience! |D)

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: A House

tyger

Went into town and met up with A today! It was a lot of fun! We derped around poking at stuff a lot, particularly art stuff, which is always fun! :D

And then there was multiplayer Terrarira when I got home! Which was ALSO fun! Just, both of those things in one day was a lot.

However! I did manage to get an SD card, and it booted as an install device and... um. Pretty sure the entire computer is running off the SD card, and it can't see the freaking internal SSD. Which is a problem! So tomorrow there will be Some Research. But also I'm going over to catsit for A overnight - she's going for a family Christmas thing that's too far away for a day trip - so idek how much I'll actually get done. Still! Progress has been made, which is always nice! :3

Also even if I don't have an actual fix tomorrow I'll get to poke around the new desktop environment and see if I DO actually like it, which is also important! (The place I have it set up for installing the OS is also not great for actually using the computer, simply due to the fact that if I'm installing an OS I want to have my desktop on as well so I can Do Computer while waiting for shit to download/unpack/install, heh.)

Anyway, bed now. Am very sleepy! Hopefully I can get to sleep without pulling the blanket out since I'm... not gonna be here tomorrow night and who knows what the weather will do... it's Quite Warm and I suspect I will melt in my usual doona.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Birthplace

requiems

Watch on YouTube

IM GOING TO BE INSUFFERABLE ABOUT THIS UNTIL RELEASE IS JESSE OK??? IS JESSE OK REMEDY? IS JESSE FUCKING OK!?!?!

That said as much as I theoretically do dig playing as Dylan since I assume this will be significantly less Oldest House contained, and that in itself is a masterful usage of same universe different place by using the untapped powers of a protagonist who was passed over for the role they were groomed for and divorcing from the very much alive setting that went "I like this sibling better" and was ultimately possessed by the invading force and now has to relearn to live on his own terms... I want to play as Jesse,,,, where is girl,,,,

That reticence aside this is so fucking hype to me you don't even know. It's so fucking weird. Look at the patterns!!!!

Me last time, I've been sleeping consistently eight hours through. Me the last three nights, five hours, four hours, two hours (💀). I was microwaving Control enough to have had dreams about it, some ThoughtsTM after spinning it a whole bunch

( orange peel )

I really gotta find a way to play Firebreak... rattles Remedy why did you have to make this co-op mandatory with a set number of people.

Current Mood: pensive

tyger

It came!!! :D :D :D

( Extremely geeky linux rambling here )

Anyway, the keyboard-computer bit is pure white, so I'm thinking it'll be called Reshiram, since I've been on a pokemon kick for a while. Though maybe Kyuurem since the screen is black? Not sure. Will think about it, since I'mma reinstall the OS it's not something I have to decide yet!

Other than all that, really not much today, hahaha. I did washing, and cleaned the catboxes, that's about it. Also fic reading and some Terraria. But mostly new! computer!!! And attendant geekery.

Current Mood: geeky
Current Location: Birthplace

requiems

Let's start with the positive... I beat base Hollow Knight. 🎉🥳

( Final boss introspective, or, ''I wish I could SEE'' )

In less positive news, Overwatch changed its aim assist for controllers with the launch of season 20. ( I swear whenever they remember console exists they simply screw us over )

Either way, I really could have done without having to deliberately set my brain off to find out what it can tolerate... this is a game I've played every day I've had ME, almost, I'm very used to it, I have long practice at what vfx I have to be careful with and things I just don't see anymore. Now everything is like a micro aggression on my brain, like it's learning it new, and if it were new it would have long led to dealbreaker. I do not want the thing that makes my brain settle and burn less on a bad day with visual familiarity to do the opposite of that.

Ashe skins are cute though. I love her. I miss her. I've been sleeping consistent eight hours but also overall not enough and had to pass on furniture getting this week, so I will attempt to do some work on finalising the rewrites for chapter 8 of undercoverfic through the weekend at the very least...

Current Mood: blah

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i will show you fear in a handful of dust.

Oh hey it's Monday again...

Ugh, rain.

Recent Reading: Solo Dance

Housesitting!

✨migraine free✨

Prep: complete! :D

Hot day!

A Successful Day

Recent Reading: The Tomb of Dragons

my eyes are having a Week

Tyger vs New Computer: Round 3!

Mon...day? Shit it is only Monday.

The Emperor's Caretaker 01

Recent Reading: Martyr!

Home!

I have yet again fallen down the linux icon customisation rabbithole. Because of course I have.

Big day!

I'm back in the building

New! Computer!!! :D

"Having a broken brain sucks" is a subject title I've used in a private entry but it bears repeating

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