i will show you fear in a handful of dust.

White chook lives!!!! Found her when I went to let the chooks into the run this morning! She was hiding behind the chook shed, which she definitely wasn't yesterday, and she went in extremely easily, so I think she really wanted to go in hahaha.

Anyway they are NOT getting out of the run any more nope. Fucking miracle they're all still fine tbh!

Other than that, I! Am back!! In my room!!!!! Aaaaaaaa so happy~~

Getting the desktop moved was a major pain in the ass and took like an hour and a half because after trying very hard to not need to I had to take the screens off the arms and put them back on when the stand was in place. Bleh. I mean, worth it to have the desk space but still, annoying.

Anyway now I can sit at my computer without my legs complaining too much, and also have things at the right height and also. Desk space. I missed it.

I also have an inkling my brain's gonna cooperate better with some things in here, but that remains to be seen. Hopefully, though!

But first, naps!

Soooo this afternoon I heard the chooks freaking out again, and I ran out AND THERE WAS A FOX. ( CW: Predication, potential (still unconfirmed) animal death. )

Anyway, maybe the white chook was hiding somewhere I couldn't find her, maybe she's gone, hard to say right now. :/ But since it was, you know, the middle of the afternoon I could actually look around properly this time, so I don't have high hopes. Find out in the morning, I guess.

I think today was actually the first time I've seen a fox in person, unless I maybe saw one at a zoo or something? I don't think I have though. I'd be happier about it if it wasn't for the fact they shouldn't be on this fucking continent at all in the first place, ugh. Fucking invasives. Haet.

Rather than throw out all that pancake mix, I did a research, and it turns out there's stuff you can add to make things less overwhelmingly bicarb soda-y! Mainly acidic stuff, which in my case means lemon juice (since I have that on hand). Also cocoa, which isn't something that I'd've thought was acidic? Must be just very slightly. And I was thinking of adding cocoa to a pancake ANYWAY, so of course I did that.

First pancake results are: still terrible soda aftertaste, but MUCH more manageable. I could actually eat it! :D So, clearly, next time I just needa add more lemon! Alternatively, add more flour and a little bit of sugar to the actual mix. Might try both, next time! Even with the acid neutralising the flavour, the pancake came out a bit spongy, which is... not the right texture for a pancake. That is a cake-cake texture!

Still, I'm happy I was able to make it palatable! :3 Less waste yessss. (Chooks very happily gobbled up the inedible one, too. And hey, they deserved a treat after their big scare, so it's basically not at all wasted! Ish.)

Need to shower tomorrow and go and get milk again orz orz orz. I am probably drinking too much milk but also. Milk is delicious. Might go to the little supermarket, which is by the asian grocery, and get dumplings and stuff this time. Haven't had dumplings for a few weeks, and they sound really good...

Sooo I was SUPPOSED to have my stupid appointment today but did I??? No. Because they didn't call me. >/ Same thing happened to Sibling, so that's something but ARGH. (I did in fact call them to let them know, but the auto-responder said they had too many calls and hung up on me. Which is just. FFS. Will try again Monday.)

I also tried making pancake mix! Alas, while it did the whole turn into pancake thing just fine, it tasted overwhelmingly of baking soda and so was pmuch inedible. :/ :/ :/ Soooo that's a whole lot of flour (and stuff) that's going in the compost tomorrow! But at least it's stuff we had laying around already?? Clearing out the cupboard if nothing else...

Chooks are fine, and the cats are cute, though so nothing's too bad! :D Gonna nap now, yessss.

( Content Warning: Possible Animal Death (nothing confirmed as yet) )

Other than that... slept stupid late, which was annoying, but I DID manage to get down to the optometrist before they closed. Alas, they can't do anything about the coating, the lenses just need to be replaced. :/ Soooo that's even higher up on my to-do list. Just gotta wait for, you know, money. Ugh. Might even be worth taking cash out of my savings for it, buuuut I'd rather not.

Also did another coat of paint on all the skirting boards! Will see how they look tomorrow, I'm hoping that the small ones are really done this time, but they had a few mysteriously appearing rough bits I had to sand back today, so that might. Also happen. Again. :|

Dunno if Sibling is gonna be over tomorrow, but if so will get a second opinion on stuff. Answer may well be 'jfc how are you SO BAD at this???', but at least then I'll know.

And now to bed! >: Or. Soon. There is a cat on my lap and I don't really want to annoy her...

So the coating is flaking off the back of one of my lenses in a MAJOR way, it's extremely annoying. Given what I can see peering through the bits where it's gone it's also been exacerbating the flare from my astigmatism, which is... not great, and also explains a lot. I'm gonna go down to the optometrist and see if they can remove it tomorrow, I think! And ask them what that particular coating is for; I think it was for glare reduction? Which um. Maybe that one is not for me...

Other than that... finally did the stupid application for unemployment support. Which I definitely SHOULD have done as soon as I got made redundant, but I did not. Bleh.

Didn't do any painting today, mostly because it was cold and raining. But also just brain shit. Sibling DID come over and do another coat on the floor, though! Should just be one more to go, but I guess we'll see how it is.

Also managed to actually make myself have a shower, so I can go to the shops tomorrow without fear of stinking people out, heh.

Anyway, going to bed now! Maybe I'll be able to sleep easily tonight! Sure as fuck couldn't last night, uuuugh...